The worst year of my life.
Apparently I have horrific past karma, hmmm. Okay, that’s a bit dramatic…even for me. Scratch that, I definitely am coming out of a fog. Feelings. Yuck. This past year has been a doozy and now I am facing consequences of, what seems like , a lifetime.
When did I fall asleep…when did the fog begin to settle into my consciousness and leave me unconscious? Half my days are spent in my head making up stories of what I want my life to look like to myself and others. The other half of my days are spent trying to deal with reality. I say trying, because the pain is so great that I do everything possible to avoid it. Today I decided to feel the pain.
So I will start from last year, about … let’s say February, when I met a guy and brought him home. Some might say that was a really bad choice, but I have made a lot of bad choices, therefore I will add that to my litany of bad, though interesting choices. You see, for the first time in my life, I fell in love.